Archive for October, 2006

max brenner

Friday, October 20th, 2006

let’s name him my chocolate man.

he’s my chocolate man because he’s as sweet as dark chocolate. but dark chocolates arent sweet, you tell me. yes they arent. in fact my chocolate man prefers his sweet. but i prefer mine dark. so he’s still like a dark chocolate for me. my favorite.

he’s my chocolate man because he couldnt be taken for granted. people always crave for chocolates. i always crave for him. for his attention. for his sweetness. for the feeling that goes when im with him. it’s like eating a chocolate, it feels like heaven. sometimes ur satisfied with one bite. sometimes, you would always ask for more. but it’s impossible for you not to miss eating it.

he’s my chocolate man because one look and your mouth will water. (this is without sexual innuendos, mind you).  he’s good looking and also looks nice and kind. a single look makes you want to know more about him. just like a chocolate, one look at it and it makes you want to go and grab a bite.

he’s my chocolate man because he’s liked and loved by everybody. everybody, maybe at some point in their lives, liked chocolates. and that’s the way with him. he’s the friendliest of them all. he’s the kindest of them all. but because of that i think he’s close to being gay. but maybe it’s not his friendliness. maybe it’s just everything about him. but he’s still my chocolate man no matter what they say.

he’s my chocolate man because he takes away my depression. one look at my chocolate man and my sour mood would be lifted. and when im not with him, i feel a little bad and sad. just like a chocolate, it’s one of the best anti-depressant ever made.

he’s my chocolate man. and i dont think i can ever find another one.

but what’s sad about craving and liking my chocolate man? he might be another person’s chocolate man… and i might just be one of those cheap chocolate girls.

kung pwede lang sana

Tuesday, October 10th, 2006

kung pwede lang isigaw na ayoko na, siguro nabingi na kayo.

kung pwede lang sanang sabihing tama na, siguro wala na ako.

kung pwede lang sanang itigil ang lahat ng ito, sana ay wala na akong reklamo.

kung pwede lang sanang unahan kita, di na ako nagkakaganito.

pero hindi pwede.

at bakit hindi pwede?

kasi hindi ganun kadali ang mag-give up. sa career. sa kinakareer. kasi baka ngayon lang ‘to. at kung magku-quit ako, may darating pa ba? kung titigilan ko siya, may papalit ba sa kanya? haha

hindi ganun kadali ang basta mag-impake na lang at bumalik sa pinanggalingan mo. gusto kong mag-aral pero para ano? takasan ang pagtatrabaho na one day ay haharapin ko rin? gusto ko nang umuwi pero anong mapapala ko? oo, magkakasama nga kami ng pamilya ko pero one day, magkakahiwalay rin kami, so why delay the inevitable?

hindi rin ganun kadali bitiwan ang akala mo’y hawak mo na. career. kinakareer. andun na eh, bat bigla pang nawala? may ipinapakita na eh, bat basta na lang itinago? nararamdaman mo na eh, bat basta na lang naglaho? nakita na kitang nakatingin, pero ikaw ang naunang umiwas. bakti wala pang nangyayari? kung pwede lang sanang ako ang mauna, gagawin ko. pero hindi. ayoko. dahil hindi pwede…

pero kung pwede lang sana…