Archive for July, 2008

Confusion Stage… Quarter-Life Crisis

Sunday, July 13th, 2008

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along 
with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about 
yourself that you didn’t know and may not like. 
You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or 
two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. 

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those 
friends that you thought you were so close to aren’t exactly the 
greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost touch 
with are some of the most important ones. What you don’t recognize is 
that they are realizing that too, and aren’t really cold, catty, mean or 
insincere, but that they are as confused as you. 

You look at your job… and it is not even close to what you thought you 
would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that 
you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. 

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and 
find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that 
you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding 
things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn’t. One minute, 
you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the 
greatest force of your life. 

You feel alone and scared and confused. 
Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with 
dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and 
further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move 
forward. 

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such 
damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can’t meet anyone 
decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love 
someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are 
doing this because you know that you aren’t a bad person. 

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. 
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. 

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk 
with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make 
a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life 
for yourself… and while winning the race would be great, right now 
you’d just like to be a contender! 

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We 
are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we 
can to figure this whole thing out.